Jam Of The Day: August Alsina "No Love"

                                                     R&B's New Heart Stealer

From the first time I heard his hit single, "I Luv This Shit", I was sold. This 21 year old heart-throb hails from New Orleans and he definitely shows up and shows out. I am one who likes to research the artist first before I decide to fully immerse myself into their work. By researching the artist I am able to determine if it is worth my full attention or not. Once I began to read his story of overcoming the streets, dealing, losing his brother, and finally devoting his life to music to better his family;I immediately knew then that I was a fan. On his track "Downtown" he tells of his brothers murder and he even provides a powerful vision through his lyrics.

“Phone just ringing heard a nigga got got/He was over on the East last thing that he heard six shots/He ain’t getting no love from the cops, nobody got caught/Real talk when I heard who it was, my heart near damn stop/Somebody done killed my brother, now I gotta get back, let ‘em know cause a nigga gotta feel that!”

Today, I found myself replaying "No Love" a few times. I guess I was in my feelings, as usual (lol) so I decided to share. Much respect to August as he is on his way to a very promising and lengthy career. Hopefully, one day he and Bad Milli could collab. I'm sure she would love that hehehehe.

Be blessed everyone!

Thoughts Of A Thinker

If this isn't the truth... The ability to break through those barriers and become who you are truly destined to be is surely made possible by assasinating who you use to be. Once you change your thinking you change your being. I'm working.... #TheUnveiling #BadMilli #thelîk #moneydayz

Jam Of The Day: TY Dollar Sign (TY $) "Or Nah"

You going to thoroughly listen and read this post Or NAHHHHH lol...

So for a while now I and I'm sure you who are reading have been hearing this phrase "Or Nah" being overly used on every social media website. Hell I even heard a student at my job say this the other day so I know you should have by now and if not I am here to get you very acquainted. I believe that this ultimately comes from Ty Dollar Sign's hit "Or Nah". Initially his hit "Paranoid" is what caught my attention as the radio frequently played this joint often on my ride to work or just period. At first I was taken aback by it as he speaks of having two chicks in the club at the same damn time and neither are "suppose" to know about the other....Yet he feels they are trying to set him up. Hmmmmm... After I researched the "OR Nah" hit about a few weeks ago and this young man from LA is holding his own. Not only does he sing but he also raps, plays instruments, and produces. Currently signed to Wiz Khalifa's Taylor Gang Records and Atlantic Records he shall definitely be around for a while. Not to mention I heard it playing on the radio just a few days ago this week which ultimately confirmed that this jam is beyond fire.

So you ready to listen to this fire OR NAHHHHH.... Enjoy

808's and He@rtbreak: PT II

 

Music, our struggles, and pain seem to what kept us together!

As I sat for hours trying to take my mind off all of the strife that I was enduring I decided to pick myself up by watching the Netflix series Orange Is the New Black. As I provide my undivided attention into this amazing series all of the emotions that I was eluding suddenly reappeared. Prior to forcing my attention upon something else tears were all I could muster but they were now accompanied by laughter and a deeper sadness. As they began to tell stories pertaining to their lives and how they ended up in jail I immediately starting to realize that it was I preventing my own happiness. I was doing so by not allowing myself to just live. Instead, I sat on the couch crying my heart out, over thinking, and eating NutriGrain bars as if they were going to expire with the next few minutes. It took a few days for me to realize that as I was losing precious time being devastated over something that was apparently not meant to last..... life was still in motion. Heartbreak seems to stop everything besides time. So here I am feeling renewed and semi at peace but frustrated that I allowed another to steal my happiness. How could I have allowed another to take what they did not provide? I am to fault here.

So, I initially asked what do you do when you are sad and want to cry but you only know that it will make you feel worse?

Cry then dust yourself off and remember that somewhere that person is not crying nor hurting over you. If they were......then they would never have put you in that position in the first place. As I dust myself off, rearrange my life back to being focused only on me, and continue to live the life that I have been blessed with; I vow to have better judgement if there is a next time that "lust" decides to present itself as "love".

Al Green's, "How Can You Mend A Broken Heart" ,softly plays in the background and I too use to wonder this.


(to be continued)

June Glam Bag: Pretty In Paradise

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808's and He@rtbreak

Music, our struggles, and pain seem to be what kept us together....

What do you do when you are sad and want to cry but you won't because it'll only make you feel worse? Broken hearts are difficult to mend as with anything, time is the best plan. Situations that should have never begun, but did, only to now leave you hurt wishing that certain feelings didn't exist. The tears swell in their ducts as you try your best to not allow emotion to overcome you again. I want to cry but that would only make me feel worse..... right?
Many would say pray and I've been doing that all day. I know. Pray some more huh. But my mind is tired, my heart is broken, and my soul needs mending. And this is only the beginning... (To be continued)

Lost One...... Found

The sad part is... I know who I am.... so how did I become so lost? There is no room for expectations in this world. So from here on out I become selfish for once.. I am the blessing and the curse. #millimassacre #thelîk #inmyfeelns #asusual #BadMilli #TheUnveiling

Day 2 : The Secret #Meditation #Self #Envisioning

In My Feelings: As Usual

"Chipped tooth like fab ... without that degree I'd still be bad"
Glad to say even though I've been having slight turmoil and experiencing a few unexpected changes...life is always great. I'm alive,  breathing, and finding peace that was lost....but I just want to get back to the music. Never will I ever allow another to stop my dream...sighs. Trying to bounce back after losing so much. Again.

To My Angels: Desiree and George

A year ago today I learned that I would never hug or hear my mom's voice again because she had gone to meet her maker. I was sure that today would be very difficult for me and as it has been somewhat ....I can accept it. I'm happy that she can now be with my father and other friends and family. Time awaits no one..believe me. I left Chicago for NY and never saw her again until I was choosing caskets. Rest in Heaven to my angels. #blessedtho #OnlyChildShit #thelîk #BadMilli

In My feelings : As Usual

                                                                 *** Day 1 ***
            "EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact .. it's true."



Thank God for my sense of self...Change is here and it feels good. After watching the Secret last night im sure it's time for a mental cleanse. Then and only then shall I make it Reign. Time to feel like that in which I'm working so hard to obtain. Success. Live in the feeling until you get what you are envisioning. #HaitusTime #millibthinking #thelîk

The Secret: "EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact .. it's true." ...........
Life can and should be phenomenal .. and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction.
Thank you Lord for happiness!

In My Feelings: As Usual

At the end of the day. I am human. Heavily flawed but full of ambition and potential. I don't need a facade nor make up. I wear weave but so what. Underneath is a full head of au naturale that's just as kinky and curly as my ancestors hair. Freckles invade my face's space and my thoughts suffocate the little freedom I have left. Trials and tribulations have left me paranoid and overly cautious. But they've kept me alive. Don't access me by my skin color because my story is darker than night. I've emerged out of the worst storm alive so I dare not give up now. I've learned to embrace that in which makes me different...Because I have no problem being me. #inthought #thelîk #thelawdmadethis

Thoughts Of A Thinker : ILL Feelings

" ILL Feelings"

"It's not until I defy all that they expected and become a complete asshole that they realize the rejection" 

I appreciate the true intentional ill feelings of me...I had a feeling something was different but I had no clue what it could be. It was like a demon in disguise on some 666 shit. Fortunately, it was in the form of a human being. What could I have done to make one feel such a way? I merely tried to help the best way I knew possible and wasn't even getting paid ....Still I stayed. Being the person that I am and having a heart of precious gold these Ill Feelings I could no longer hold. So I emailed and sent a 2 page letter and witnessed the real unfold. No reason to play the blame game and sound lame about what did it or how. Yet I am still the one in the end made out to be such a complete bitch. But that’s LIFE without a doubt.

I appreciate the true intentional ill feelings of me.... At least they had finally come out in the open for once. I had noticed them before but I like to let people be who they are. Who would have known that this inside hatred would soon manifest into a never ending night of truth. And I found out the truth that day and confronted that fucking demon anyway. I poked it with a pitch fork and exposed its true identity. I had no fear in my heart none what so ever. So I put those horrible feelings in a corner and made it known that I was very aware. Aware of the separation of feelings and lack of respect that were oh so blatant yet I continuously ignored. I’m not even sure why I let it all blow over until now but no more fronting. No more hunting for the truth. No more pretending to be something we are not. No more fucking keys without locks. Everything is clear now so I’ve stopped asking why and how! No disrespect. No hard feelings just myself coming to grip with the terms of such jealousy, maybe. So I went home and sat ...Thinking about all the possible ways I could approach this situation lightly. Then I started to get even more mad. I ranted on the phone for hours about the pro's and con's and if I was some how apart of this fake friendship I now call treason.

I appreciate the true intentional ill feelings of me....So here I sit ....Still envisioning that night and how everything went down and it still bothers my soul until this day. Here I am putting these random thoughts on paper to release my disgust. I mean who needs friends anyway huh. Especially when you’re an only child but that sounds absurd to most people. I'd rather not sit for hours and confide in myself. I'd rather not speak the ill words of dislike upon one's soul so I’d like to bring this issue to a close. I can only trust myself and even at times I question her motives too. Whether they are good or bad is up to you. It’s a world full of evil beings, dealings, and killings and I am here so these are my feelings. I express them sometimes but not often for my being is afraid of letting someone in again. Matching tattoos, fun nights looking cute with plenty of booze. Yet why do I feel so misused? I guess no one appreciates the nice, polite , and caring side of me. Its not until I defy all that they expected and become a complete asshole that they realize the rejection. So I sit here and write as " Pissed Off " plays in the background and this Isn’t even me. My normal state wants to be happy and alive. But today my ILL FEELINGS have overcome and have won this battle. I suggest I stop here to maintain my sanity and release this thought from my brain for you and HER to read someday. Friends do not exist and the more I type I get pissed. So I shall depart with the thought that we are all entitled to act as we please. Just hope one day it isn’t the enemy that you shall need!

New Music: New Artist

New Chicago Artist

DLow- The King Of Bop

Being that I am from the Chi I always try to represent for the city that I was born in as well as support any talent that may arise. I was watching 106&Park yesterday and this young man had the audience bopping (no pun intended) all over the stage. Focused and eager to know where this DLow was from I immediately realized he was from my hometown from his dance moves. Glued to the screen as two dancers killed the DLow Shuffle I felt proud to be from the city that's always negatively portrayed. Featuring my favorite Chicago dancer, Lil Kemo; this video is energetic, creative and shows that "Chiraq" has plenty if talent. R.Kelly, Kanye, and Twista have influenced many of us that truly love to make music and now I am happy to see new talent on deck. Chicago breeds greatness, visionaries, artists, Presidents, rappers, singers, dancers, and more..... Not everything is bang bang! Even though I love that sh!t like I love August Alina.

 That's another story...enjoy! A piece of my city from me to you.

In My Feelings : As Usual

*** Always In Thought *** ........

Too much hurt, not enough happiness. Too much poverty, not enough stability. Too many boys, not enough men. Too many vixens, not enough women. Too many thugs, not enough survivors. Too many lies, not enough real. Too many facades, not enough self love. Too many jungles, not enough warriors. Too many struggles, not enough prayer. ‪#‎AliveAndThriving‬ ‪#‎WatchMeWork‬ ‪#‎WorkTeam

TERRIBLE NEWS Y'all . . . One Of The Most IMPORTANT DJs . . . In The History Of BLACK MUSIC . . . Just PASSED AWAY!!! - MediaTakeOut.com™ 2014

TERRIBLE NEWS Y'all . . . One Of The Most IMPORTANT DJs . . . In The History Of BLACK MUSIC . . . Just PASSED AWAY!!! - MediaTakeOut.com™ 2014

 

 

Live On DJ Frankie Knuckles

It's always hard to say goodbye to our loved ones so I would first and foremost like to give my condolences to the family of DJ Frankie Knuckles.... Also may he Rest In Heaven and his family be comforted in their time of need. As a fellow Chicagoan and listener of House Music I felt it was only right that I pay respects to a Chicago Legend. My mother, aunties, and father use to step and dance to his music all the time and they were so excited for the House Music Parties because of course DJ Frankie Knuckles music would have it rocking.

" Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God "