Monday, September 15, 2014

Thoughts Of A Thinker: The Ball Game ( A true story)

The ball game was strange...some may have been ecstatic by the fame....But I for some reason remained the same!

It all began with a long train ride, in which had been a few years since my last travels on such, but we were ready. Immediately after we got on a young man decided I was the perfect stranger to confide in and that was fine with me. He began to tell me about how he writes poetry and also does impersonations and I was sure he would soon demonstrate one or the other. He looked like he had been through some trials because they were written all over his face and by his body language I could tell he was nervous speaking to me. He initially asked me for directions and I provided him with such. He then asked me if I would like to hear the poetry but being that it was a full train I opted to read it myself. Most people would have ignored him but I chose to listen and interact. Why not??? I’m no better than him nor anyone else here. So I opened my ears and my eyes and began to envision life differently. Even though the handwriting was extremely hard to decipher (this he told me) I managed to make out plenty of the words. The poem was one of sadness, sorrow, and doubt. This young man was having a battle with life and even though I am unable to recall the title I do remember his face after I read it. I too remember having this feeling of disdain in life for I am still struggling with this emotion myself. His writings were ones in which he was proud of his work yet he wanted an honest opinion. I was the one to deliver this honesty to him, but who am I to judge one's work indifferently. After reading his work my exact words were " This is better than you probably think young man ". He smiled and went on to do impersonations next.
Impersonation after impersonation. If he could have he would have done all that he knew. He did attempt to do Obama, Madea, and others but the train began to get even more crowded than before. Even though they were not all satisfactory they were still great attempts and I enjoyed his open-ness with me, a total stranger. He then began to open up even more. He told me about his aspirations and goals and I could definitely identify with him for I had and have the same. He told me about how he was with DCFS and how hard his life had been. I began to envision how my hard times had been. He went on to tell me about how his family didn’t think he'd graduate from high school and how he'd moved from Dallas to Chicago due to rough times. This young man told me how he wanted to go to college and become a great actor or writer. I then gave him the encouragement he needed. I asked him his age and he told me he was 20 years old. I asked him had he been looking into school and the words that came out of his mouth next would help both him and I. He said " Its too late for me to go to college now ". My mouth dropped and my heart became saddened. Too late for college? Too late for a new beginning at life? Too late to further your education and your 20??? Absurd.
(to be continued)

Jam Of The Day: Drake featuring Sampha "Too Much"

"Heard once that in dire times when you need a sign, that's when they appear"

This past Saturday was my father's Birthday and of course I caught myself in my feelings, as usual. It's like my days are already hard enough without my parents so having to think about what we could be doing for his special day if he was here makes me even more frustrated. I promise to not get any further into my feelings so I will just leave this Jam Of The Day. I needed this today and even though it left me in tears as I drove to work I appreciate the sincerity of the song as I really should just not think about it to much.. SIGHS.

Blessings everyone!

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Jam Of The Day: Jaheim featuring Keyshia Cole "I've Changed"

I've Changed For You

I was introduced to this song I think around 2007/2008 by a guy named Kris who I just so happen to meet one day during my toughest times while walking down the street in Chicago. As I went to the store to go put minutes on my pre-paid phone he walked around the corner looking like nothing I had ever seen before. Louis Vuitton scarf on his head and Louis duffel bag he approached me and asked for my number in which I gladly obliged. He actually ended up being from NYC and at the time was staying in my hometown of Chicago actually in the building across the street from mine that my aunt used to live in. He and I had very nice talks about music, life, dreams, and many other topics then when he played this song it just made my soul happy. Even though he had not changed for me LOL.. I appreciated his company during that time as I was trying to find my way and pick myself up from nothing. I definitely pray that one day I too find a man that wants to not only change for me but also for himself and the quality of love that does exist out here. I hope it makes you feel the same way or close to. *Smile*

Blessings and favor to all…

Friday, September 12, 2014

Jam Of The Day : Pryo Traxx featuring Bad Milli and August Rush "About The Money" Cover

Check out this remix of  "About The Money" featuring me of course. Brought to you by Pyro Traxx of Kloud Gang TV and Blow The Bank Entertainment.


YouTube:Pryo Traxx

YouTube:Bad Milli
Google+:Bad Milli

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Jenna Marbles Is Hilarious : What A Girl's Eyebrows Mean

    Eyebrows On Fleek... Da f*k...

Thanks to my friend Valo I have had more than my laugh for the day. Jenna Marbles always delivers the most hilarious YouTube vids but this one here is probably my favorite but then again I have many favorites from her LOL. Enjoy.

Jam Of The Day: Kanye West "Coldest Winter"

   Kanye West- Coldest Winter

This is one of my favorite songs form Kanye West's 808's and Heartbreak Album. After watching him perform this live atop a makeshift mountain with snow falling and his face covered by a Margiela mask I fell in love. The song is very meaningful and at times has even evoked tears and sadness from me but at time they were tears of joy. It was as if I could feel his pain from his loss as I too have lost those dearest to me. For some reason I needed this song today as I thrive on only great memories of my mother and father who are now in Heaven. Only I and my long lost brother Ye can understand this

Many of my winter's too have been very cold. It's the ability to emerge through the storm and still have the ability to see the sun shine that is the claim to victory.

On lonely nights I start to fade
(On lonely nights I start to fade)
Her love is a thousand miles away
(Her love is a thousand miles away)
Memories made in the coldest winter
Goodbye my friend will I ever love again

Memories made in the coldest winter

It's 4am and I can't sleep
(It's 4am and I can't sleep)
Her love is all that I can see
(Her love is all that I can see)
Memories made in the coldest winter
Goodbye my friend will I ever love again

Memories made in the coldest winter
Winter, winter

Goodbye my friend will I ever love again
Goodbye my friend will I ever love again
Goodbye my friend will I ever love again

If spring can take the snow away
(If spring can take the snow away)
Can it melt away all of our mistakes
(Can it melt away all of our mistakes)
Memories made in the coldest winter
Goodbye my friend I won't ever love again

Never again


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Jam Of The Day : Guru "Count Your Blessings"

Guru- Count Your Blessings

After attending a listening party for a dope rap duo out of Brooklyn called "Wise Guyz Twins" I was introduced to a Guru hit by a friend.(I will revisit the Wise Guyz Twins in another post as they are the hottest duo /artists out of Brooklyn right now.) Back to the message at hand, my friend was adamant that Guru was definitely what real rap was as he stated that his uncles had introduced him and that I should take a listen. Being that I normally try to do as much research about an artist as I can before I cling on I came across of course his bio first. With a very extensive resume comprised of not only music, Guru and Gang Starr were quite a movement. Guru himself was a rapper, actor and producer and many of his albums made Billboard Charts. With 10 albums released from 1993 to 2009 and over 40 guest appearances from 1990 to 2010 Guru has graced tracks for the Mo' Better Blues Soundtrack to a De La Soul Album. Unfortunately, Guru went on to heaven at the age of 48 after a battle with cancer but his music will live on forever.
After doing some research for a great Guru track I stumbled upon "Count Your Blessings" from the JazzMatazz Volume II Album. This is a track filled with substance, overcoming struggles, and persevering and I felt it is what was needed for today especially being that I too get caught up in the world of frustration and wonders.

Too many times I felt bad
(Count, count your blessings)
Too many times I couldn't see what really I had
(Better count your blessings)
Too many times I felt bad
(Count, count your blessings)
Too many times I couldn't see what really I had
(I say to thee well count your blessings)

I remember when I used to get depressed
Overwhelmed by the stress feeling my life was the illest mess
Always dwelling on the stuff that wasn't right
And staring at the four walls in my room all night

Searching for a way to cope
The situation shaky like I'm walkin' on a tightrope
But now I see it's time to get a handle and take control of things
So for me, I'ma light a candle and other people got it worse
I get a lot of love, so I ought give my thanks first


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Jam Of The Day: Tweet "Smoking Cigarettes"

Tweet The Southern Hummingbird

How many music lover's remember this smooth and subtle jam??? I know that even though I was young when it was introduced in 2002 I still loved the way she gracefully caused the listener to feel her hurt. Telling a story about being in love with a man who is basically stressing her as he is now absent. As she relives the good memories, slightly begging for him to come back, and crying her heart out she also had the ability to make smoking cigarettes at night sound appealing. LOL. Take a listen and let me know how you feel about it. I know that it is definitely a favorite of mine and always will be.

P.S. Tweet where are you? We need your graceful RnB approach in the industry at this time.


"You got me nervous and tremblin'
Smokin' cigarettes at night, oh
Wonderin' where you been?
Smokin' cigarettes at night, ooh
I can't cope with this
Smokin' cigarettes at night, ooh
You're the one to help me quit
Smokin' cigarettes at night"

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Jam Of The Day: Lil' Kim featuring Lil' Shanice "Aunt Dot"

The Notorious K.I.M

It seems as if no one remembers this track but me LOL. Lil' Kim featuring Lil' Shanice "Aunt Dot" ,from her album The Notorious K.I.M, is definitely a track that one should get in tune with. Lil Kim is at her best here as she tells a story about taking in her niece Shanice because her Aunt Dot is going to handle some business. Not only is Kim rapping as herself but also her Aunt Dot. You have few bars delivered from Lil' Shanice who brings that soft child's voice but also a little ahead of the game and just as tough as Kim. This is the for sure a classic. Take a listen and let me know what you think.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

For Mike Brown : Our Son, Brother, Nephew, and Friend Too

J.Cole- "Be Free"

I was riding to work when this song came on and it immediately caught my attention. J.Cole seemed to capture every element of the injustice that was committed on the day that unarmed teen ,Mike Brown, was gunned down by a white police officer in Ferguson,MO. JCole inserted the interview from Mike's friend who happened to be walking with him when this tragedy happened and I immediately began to cry. The emotions that I felt were not foreign but I don't think I have ever experienced anger, sadness,disgust, and grief all at once. The feeling was beyond powerful but I had to pull myself together so that it would not lead to hatred for those that treat us like animals and are inhumane. I started praying as the song was playing and asking God to save us from these kind of people. When I first saw the pictures of his lifeless body laying in the street and a pool of blood trickling down that street from his injuries I felt as if I had lost a brother, son, nephew, and friend as well. Much respect to J.Cole as he gave the listener more than just a powerful heartfelt tribute but he provided LIFE for all those that have been killed unjustly by those that they appoint to protect and serve our communities.


"J. Cole released a tribute song in honor of Michael Brown titled “Be Free” last week, and on Sunday (Aug 17), the rapper paid a visit to Ferguson, Missouri to pay his respects to the teen who was shot and killed by a police officer last Saturday.
Accompanied by members of his Dreamville label, Cole stopped by the scene where Brown was killed and spoke to protesters and activists about the civil unrest taking place in the St. Louis suburb.
He also made other stops in the neighborhood, including a visit to the QuickTrip gas station that has been referred to as “ground zero,” where protesters and police have battled, and is not too far from where Brown was gunned down."
Read more: J. Cole Visits Mike Brown Protests in Ferguson After Releasing “Be Free” Tribute Song (