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Worst Behavior

IM ON MY WORST BEHAVIOR, MUHFUKAH

I was Draking and Driving at 7am when "Worst Behavior" came on. I was immediately engulfed in the passion behind not only the words but also the fact that he made the word "Muhfukah" sound so swell. It was as if I could feel the truth behind it. I caught myself in the zone saying,"Muhfukah never loved us" as if I was apart of OVO and grew up in Toronto next door to Aubrey. Since he hates for people to say ,"I feel you" I'd much rather say,"I Get It I Get It". Matriculating through Life University is not easy at all. To have the ability to go from normal to superstar has to be an awesome feeling but also overwhelming. I feel it's when you are at your lowest that you figure out who you are supposed to be in life by listening to the calling in your heart. In Drake's track titled, " Pound Cake" he says you know its crazy when you are who you think you are. We spend years trying to figure out where in society we fit in, what it is that we are good at, why we are here, where we are going, what we are going to get, and a plethora of other questions for self. How much do we spend gaining understanding of self though? We all have a purpose, talents, and wisdom that are to be shared with the world somehow but we often allow our experiences to deter us. These experiences are detrimental but they also build strong characteristics due to striving.

Now in a place where I only have myself to focus upon. Only myself responsible for gaining as much sense of self and knowledge as I can in order to keep this understanding. Those days of feeling defeated, shy, and like the awkward freckled face black girl have been buried by a feeling of,"Mufukah never loved us". Everything that I do and accomplish now are in memory of my parents but more so for my future generations. It is now up to me to become as wise and alive as he who was resurrected himself for myself as well as my family's name.

I recently read that I have the DNA of a winner. I wear a crown of favor. Royal blood flows through my veins. I am the head, never the tail, above never beneath. I will live with purpose, passion, and praise, knowing that I was destined to live in victory. Once we begin to embrace, master, and live by this then the calling comes because we can now clearly hear. Those deterring experiences that I previously spoke of are those that smother the calling.

I'm so ready I can feel it running through my veins.

MUHFUKAHS bout to love me!

Self- Racism Vs Blatant Hate

" Here comes light bright "

" Here comes light bright ".....Says some random stranger as I entered Corner Social this past weekend. I rolled my eyes and hoped they did not get stuck from the amount of force I put into the action. LOL. It took everything in me not to respond as I would have liked to say, " It's your kind that keep US seperated". I am fairly light/yellow skinned with freckles on my face and I stand at 5'8 so I can get that I do not blend in easily, but to resort to kindergarten name calling is beyond immature. So as he says this ALOUD to his female friends, they all look, I give that "This Ain't What You Want" look, and then I began to rationalize the various reactions I could give.

Being that I had recently addressed reacting to situations that do not deserve my attention in my second issue of What The Lik Read I knew that I had to take my own advice. I myself distribute this wonderful masterpiece titled What The Lik Read in Harlem every Saturday. I either ask permission from the business to place them there for the public or I personally hand them to strangers. Rewind............

What The Lik Read: Issue 2 Rant

Slight Rant: I recently reacted out of emotion at a buddy during conversation because he called me a New Black Slave. I immediately associated this accusation with music being that recently Kanye West dropped his Yeezus Album and there is a track titled “New Slave”. In that moment I felt very disrespected because in my opinion we are all slaves to life by force. This is especially geared toward those of us who do not own any businesses, yet. Even so then, it’s your business but you are now a slave to the consumer. In other words, we are all somehow inevitably controlled by the forces of life on Earth as we must work to survive. My issue is the way I reacted with such passion but anger as well. I left the ordeal feeling like I had taken a step back on this journey to peace. My solution? Meditation and inspirational readings. *End Slight Rant LOL*

Thought for today:People are entitled to say what they want, but you have every right to not get offended. When you give that power away you are allowing them to keep you from becoming who you are meant be. When you allow someone to upset you, you’re allowing them to control you. Why give your power away?


Back to the issue at hand:
I felt two ways about the commment, "Here comes light bright" ,so I had to rationalize the best reaction and outcome before I reacted. Part of me really did want to say something because I felt a little disrespected for another who was also brown skinned to belittle his own race. Then the other part of me kept repeating,"People are entitled to say what they want, but you have every right to not get offended" in my head so that I wouldn't end up causing a scene. I opted for a simple smile that read," You mad because I'm glowing and fly as usual because my God keeps me in tune with who I am and why I am here". I tend to realize that those who speak badly of others,especially those they don't even know, are facing insecurity issues of their own. They are not sure who they are let along where they are going so when he saw me walk in like the proud light skin African American woman that I am he was astonished. That's exactly how I like to leave them. Im very proud of the way I handled the situation because Bad Milli would have lashed out at him last week and been ready to fight if it had gotten that heated. All that would have occurred because he is unsure of himself, and I gave my power away due to feeling offended. I now take his statement as a compliment. This means when I walk in I glow literally and not only from the color of my skin.

Peace and blessings.

Talk Therapy

Therapy With Carol: 1st Session

Therapy (Latin therapīa; Greek: θεραπεία) literally means "curing, healing"

***Carol is my beautiful young co-worker whom I have decided to volunteer her services as my "therapist". She not only gives great advice but she actually listens to you. I should really start paying her lol. ***

As with many issues that Carol often helps me get through, today this one was not about relationships, friendships, nor hardships of any kind. It was about confidence and my observation lately pertained to those that should have a high self esteem and confidence but they actually lack such. I wonder how is it that one cannot think that they are amazing, beautiful, capable, and awesome. I use to be one of these individuals. Having a high self-esteem does not come from attention/recognition from others. It comes from within and is solely based on how you feel about you. Opinions and criticism are apart of life but they should not cause you to think you should change who you are and conform to what they deem acceptable. Be who you are and embrace that individuality. Like Carol says, “Sé más de lo que otros esperan de ti no por ellos si no por ti mismo.” “Be More Then What You Are Expected To Be, Not For Others, But For Yourself"

Slight Work: Intro

Purpose: Envisioning life without happiness had once become my obsession. I stressed over situations that I had no power to change. Circumstances that could be changed but no will to push forward. Then I was in a public restroom of a bar one random day and on a toilet it read, “Where are you going?” I approached this question rationally. Where am I presently going? Or where am I going in life itself? I allowed this to linger for a few days and decided that I am aiming beyond just success. As I embrace this journey I would like to take others with me as I aspire to inspire and learn! Not only for myself but for others as well as we are all one. If we could just fully grasp this. In the mean time, I shall help keep you well informed, excited, interested, eager, confused and most importantly addicted to reading ...The Lîk. Thought for today: WHERE ARE YOU GOING?